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  • Writer's pictureLizzie Hessek

Love Poems for No One

My beloved friend Ally Franklin helped me upload my Xanga posts from high school, which were living peacefully in the Xanga archives, onto a brand new Wordpress site for my reading pleasure. I have since stopped functioning and have spent all morning reading my sometimes-charming, mostly horrifying commentary from 2004 to 2007. Just like this charming/horrifying photo from August 2005.

Scattered among the awkward slang-ridden odes to teenage self-loathing I frequently wrote (I do not remember being as diligent at blogging in high school as it appears I was. The posts are pretty much every day!) are some works of poetry from the same time period. Here is Queer Martha's poetic stylings from the vaults of Xanga. This one is called, "I Would Like to Know Your Name." It was inspired by this girl I saw on the Path train travelling from Manhattan to Hoboken in 2005 and submitted as a class assignment within a larger creative writing journal called, oh yes, "Love Poems to No One."

I’m going to look.

I might even stare.

I’ll take in every curve, every smirk, every curl

From your knees to your neck,

To your hands to your hair

Your lovely Almond Eyes

Are not satisfied

As they look for a map or a poster or a sign

Constantly searching,

But they keep missing mine.

They say eyes are the windows to the soul –

But I beg to disagree.

Eyes are the mirrors, the ponds, and the spoons

Which reflect what’s inside and behind

Like a puddle pretends to be a piece of the sky

And the thousand tiny drops on my shower stall

Showing me one thousand times

Like diamonds.

Your hair is kept back with a rhinestone pin

And you grin from time to time

And I wonder what you’re thinking

As the Path Train is screeching along its tracks

Your name might be Maria.

Your eyes bug out.

Your chin is square.

Your mouth is perfect,

And it’s taught me a lot about lines beginning

And bending and dipping and ending

And I would like to touch

I would like to feel

I would like to see you

With my hands.

Maybe it’s late and I’m too tired to move,

But I can’t take my eyes off of you

And your bending, ending, dipping lips.

I tell my friend I’m such a man.

He says that it’s charming

(Though my mum says it’s alarming)

He says I’m fundamentally happy.

I say I’m fundamentally mental.

You have to understand –

Whenever I hold a dish,

I would like to let it drop.

When I’m behind the wheel,

I would like to swerve.

I would like to take a knife and cut off my curves

Like the Amazon warrior I know that I am –

Or could be

If I weren’t stuck inside this train


Because 60 degrees

Is just too cold


After the bug-eyed, square-jawed, cross-legged

Girl across the aisle.

Your black ensemble clashes with the orange

Path Train seats

In a Cristo-chic kind of way.

How I wish you were –

But it doesn’t matter now

The train is pulling into Hoboken

And we haven’t even spoken

Or made eye contact yet.

I would like to keep riding.

I would like to see where you get off,

But I grab the bar and stand.

And the train squeals to a halt.

I memorize your mouth.

The air in Jersey smells like sewer tonight

That’s how I like it.


The Mexican boy at the all night diner

Serves me a bagel with too much butter,

Not enough jelly.

But it was a dollar,

It’s one in the morning,

So I really can’t complain.

I’m too wrapped up

In that girl from the train

To care enough.

I looked, I stared,

I stayed to see

Your lines, your gaze,

Your possibilities

And I would like to know your name.

#Poetry #HighSchool #FromtheVaults

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